I am noticing changes in my behavior and my thinking. Some big, some subtle and some frustrating.
Sometimes I try too hard to get out of my head and stop thinking. This only leads to me getting upset with myself. And then I realize that I am not really in present time. You can’t be frustrated and in the present moment at the same time.
And sometimes I feel like I am going crazy because I can’t stop thinking about and working so hard at being a better person instead of just being. But then the Universe rescues me with a hug or a clue or even a guidebook, like the one I found without looking on Amazon today: You’re Not Going Crazy – You’re Just Waking Up: The Five Stages of Soul Transformation Process.
As far as my behavior goes, I am more relaxed. Things (like forgetting to write my PTP yesterday) don’t bother me. I am packing again for another teaching trip and am neither hurried nor stressed. I just am. I am being here now.
I have an extremely busy 2 weeks ahead of me yet I know everything will get done and get done well. No need to stress, obsess or worry over it all. While not always easy, things always work out, so why would this time be any different.
I have also learned that blogging every day is not the big effort I always thought it would be. It’s much easier than I imagined. And fun too!
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Interesting that we are on the same journey of being in the moment, mindful, etc. I fell into this on my journey to retirement. I found myself meditating and just trying to “be present”. My favorite book, Small Graces by Kent Nerburn, has been very helpful. I read several chapters each day, some of them over and over. Each time I notice something new or something else resonates with me. My favorite chapter, the gift of the dawn. I love how he talks about the childhood of the day.
I have out a sample of the untethered soul on my iPad as well as a few others but, the most helpful for me as I start my day is small graces.
Let me know what you think. I am enjoying your posts and some of them I could have written about myself……….
I’ll check his book out. Thanks, Ruth.
What a wonderful way to begin your new retirement.
Update: Amazon just told me that I already own that book. (Thanks, Amazon). Now I just have to go find it. Not an easy task with books all over the house and some still in tubs in the garage.